I'm still here. I still have all the
symptoms except the fever and blue lips. My throat is sore, I have
shortness of breath, all my muscles ache, I get chills–without the
fever, I have nausea, and the dry cough hasn't gone away. This could
still just be a cold, but I don't know. They won't test me because I
don't have a fever. They tell me to stay at home, but I need help
breathing. My local hospital won't let me in because they don't know
if I have the virus and they want to protect their existing patients.
I understand their not wanting to expose their patients to someone
who may or may not have the virus, but their logic is flawed. How can
they be sure none of their existing patients already has the virus?
Have all their current patients been there for at least fourteen
days? It's scary to think how unprepared and ill-equipped hospitals
are.
I've had the flu before, and many of
its symptoms are similar to what I have now. I've also experienced
shortness of breath before, but it was never associated with the flu.
In general, I have trouble breathing when the air is stuffy, so I
immediately open the windows and breathe comfortably. Now, when I
can't breathe, I step outside, where I can feel the fresh air, but
when I try to inhale, nothing goes in my lungs. I can't take in the
fresh air through my mouth or my nose. This inability to breathe is
the worst part of my experience. Everything else is just pain; I can
tolerate it. The pressure I put on my chest to take in air makes my chest hurt badly,
and it makes me feel like my heart will explode. I haven't been able to
take more than a couple deep breaths each day for almost one week.
I've documented everything since my
symptoms began to appear. In my last blog post, titled Social Distancing -
My Experience, I shared my symptoms up to the morning of Tuesday, March 24th. Monday night was the worst night in terms of breathing, or
has been so far. On Tuesday, I felt relatively fine. All my symptoms
were still there but much milder, and my temperature was still normal 98.5°F. I can now say with confidence that my appetite hasn't been the same the last few days.
I usually eat well, and, by well, I mean both a good amount and
relatively healthful food.
The last few days, I've been only able
to take in a few spoonfuls of food. Any more, and I'll feel
nauseated. So I eat a little bit every couple of hours. I still go on
short walks several times a day, with and without the dogs. The
weather has been nice, so the windows have been open all day,
allowing the air to circulate in the cabin. I haven't talked to anyone; I've waved to
the mail carrier and the neighbors from a distance.
Tuesday night, I slept well. My throat
was a little sore and I had a mild headache, but no chills, no
nausea, and, thankfully, I didn't experience any shortness of breath.
When I got up Wednesday morning, all my muscles felt sore, though. I
did some light stretches, and continued my nutritious,
immune-boosting diet of fruits, soups, and herbal teas. I've been
adding lots of garlic, turmeric, cumin, and black pepper to my soups,
usually made with lentils, and lots of vegetables. Still no fever.
Wednesday night, I finished a
proofreading job and felt too excited to sleep, so I spent some time on Twitter and went to bed late. I didn't feel sick, but
my throat still felt a little sore and I coughed a lot. I don't like
to take these cough drops. I usually get a different brand of cough drops, but the
store was all out, so I got these ones. They taste good and are effective
in soothing the throat, but they numb my throat a little, which makes
inhaling even more challenging. I slept a few hours and woke up, this
morning, to a sore throat, dry cough, nasal congestion, nausea, and a
mild shortness of breath. All my muscles were aching, and still are
right now. I gave myself a lymph massage. I'll try to take it easy
the rest of the day and just focus on breathing. Maybe I'll get some
reading done and walk a little. I still don't have a fever.
I'll keep documenting everything. I may
have the flu, but if it is just the flu, and I truly hope it is, I
can honestly say I've never had a flu this severe in my whole life.
Take care of yourself and get better, my friend. The WritingCommunity is all behind you.
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